Sunday, June 28, 2009
long post now darls.
i gonna post about. about. see la.
mum and dad. i love them the most. im really proud to have them as my parents. they're my sunshine. they have been taking care of their childrens. 7 of them. all by their own self. we were not even send to nursery. honestly. their care, their patience. everything, i'll treasure. i've seen them cry. i know, it's hurtful to see what happened when childrens goes wild. however, they really take it calmly and solve it without any help from others. they may be irritating at times. what i meant was strict. why? tts because they love us. i love you.
nur hazimah, my oldest sister, she's the one that i can take good advices about my teenage life. coz i know, she will give good advices and she knows well coz she had gone through alot of things. from good to wild. everything. and now, she's happy with her husband and 2 kids. :D
nur bazila, my 2nd oldest sister. she's the best story teller ever. i admit she have special talents and also she's the prettiest. well, sometimes i don't understand her and sometimes i do. well, don't be too choosy. :D
muhammad amri, my one and only brother. well, although sometimes he irritates me due to his mood swings, i still love him. i understand, i know how he feels. but somehow, life doesn't mean perfect forever. i hope one day, he will find the right one. to her, hell. wasted 8 yrs. and, gone. my brother didn't talk much with us, the siblings. but when he really have his moods, his craps were crab. i know sometimes he thinks we don't understand him. but, maybe if he shares, i'll do. 
nurinah, my 4th older sister. she's the best among all my sis. i can share everything with her. and i understand how she feels when sometimes, ppl don't understand her. i know she love him v. much. and i hope, its true. i know its hard to let people realise. its life. :D
nur insyirah, the 2nd youngest. well, this girl here. every crushes tt i have, i'll tell her. and, everytime she saw me cry, she will hug and consult me tho sometimes she don't know the reasons i cry. she still had alot to learn abt life. don't rush into relationships coz you are still young to know . guys are sweet talkers in this kind of age. so, dont trust fully.
nur atinah, my youngest sister, tho she is the youngest, she is the oldest to me. haha. i know, tho she always fought with her sis, insyirah, she love her. she got alot to learn. 
time really fly really fast.
think back, one day, i will lose the people tt i love.
think back, people do change.
think back, the past and the future, thrs always a reason.
i realise, i really have move on.
i really miss the times.
nazree, i miss our talkings. i miss your words and your wake up call. im sorry i hurt you. im sorry i run away from my mistakes. i take you back when i want to.
hussaini, i miss our fun. i miss our outings. too bad, we were too young to think. im sorry i hurt you. and i forgive you. we were young. we don't know whats going on with our love.
rahman, im sorry i hurt you alot of times. but i just can't accept whats going on. im not into you. theres people around us. sometimes, we need to think about others. i know, theres no more relations . but somehow, i don't want to be blame. but then, now, this feelings starts to grow. idk why. i hope its not true. i need confirmation. i don't want to take the wrong steps. im sorry.
matin, im sorry if i really make your life feels awkward. i forgive you as we don't know each other well and you don't know why. although its awhile, i'll treasure the times with you. maybe one day, we'll be friends back.
all those memories, i felt like, those moments, its like a dream. god, i really appreaciate them no matter how many times they had hurt me. its a great time with them. im learning. :) .
and, yes. thrs still something missing. don't lie if your happy being single. and don't want to be att. what i meant was, yes. you do have friends and family. and, your happy. but, when the right one comes, everything is complete. and, if he / she is really the one, your fairytale will be fulfilled with moments. with your love ones. it's everyone wants to have a partner in their life. but, the times is not right.
as for me, i will be lying if i said tt im not waiting. but, im moving on and i know tt i am still young. maybe thrs a reason and somewhere, i know. thr is. and, i'll wait.