Friday, December 30, 2011

goodbye dear 2011

salam.

the last time i updated my blog is in the year 2010.

i jump to tumblr and now i'm back.

no, i won't get active. just a short post that i feel like typing it down.

no one know.

dear 2011, you've been the best year but i don't wish to repeat the same damn thing.

i've go through a lot. suffer a lot, gallop all the suffer a lot.

losing people. make myself the most unkind creature.

it's like,

what's family and what's relationship?

crying every single day. getting sick. vomit.

too much of care and hope and trust.

too much chances and forgives.

and to the extend of begging.

holding on the tears. holding on those feelings.

and in the end, you're dead, inside.

then you realised, after so much fire burn through your mind,

bullets hooting through your heart.

then, you fall again.

you said you won't trust too much, hope too much, beg.

but you did. you did again and again.

but well, let's see what this bring.