Friday, January 20, 2012
Meow
Syamil Bin Rozaini,This is my first post, posting about a guy whom I really love in this blog. And I hope this will be the last. I just want to say some things here, deep from my heart. I love you. Love conceals a millions and billions of meaning. But my love for you is sincere from my heart. I take this as a gift from Allah. I never thought you could be the one I love and the one I want to be with. Never. However, we can't predict Allah predictions. I don't know if you're reading this. If you don't, then let this be a mystery. I wonder how much you love me. No, not doubting your love. Just wondering. Sometimes things happened and it happened w/o me knowing and in front of my very own eyes. Jealousy proves love but not too much . Too much of it means not trusting. I wonder if my jealousy sometimes is appropriate. What happened yesterday, I just want you to just say something to make me feel ease. I still think it's my fault. I feel useless when I can't make you happy but to let you face stressful situation. I know you're not that sweet talker. I love the way you are. Sometimes I just want you to just tell me it's not me and you're really sorry. I don't care who you hang out with or what you're up to as long as you're safe and you know who am I in your life. But who am I? Am I just a typical girlfriend? Are those promises we made together true? Will you really love me and never change? I'm afraid. I trust you, yes I do. But at times, I ask this question to myself. Thousands times we said we love each other, but words can't describe how much we love right? I just want you to know that every single seconds I inhale the oxygen, I inhale my love to you. My days are incomplete without you. Your pictures replaced yourself when you're not with me. It never bores me seeing you smiling at me at pictures. Call me crazy, I'm crazy in love with you. I want you to take care of yourself if just one day I'm not there. Tell me what magics you bring to make me fall this hard. Because whenever I hug you, my heart sank. My tears drop because I'm afraid one day I'll lose you and because I really really love you.
Now goodnight blog.
