La Belle

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

'what doesn't kill you make you stronger'

i shall stop thinking negative.
i shall pray the best.
i shall make sure i'll make every single day better.
if he's not, i'm gone.

5:32 PM

Monday, January 23, 2012

Sayang is not in a good mood today I feel sucks.

7:04 AM

Friday, January 20, 2012

Meow

Syamil Bin Rozaini,
This is my first post, posting about a guy whom I really love in this blog. And I hope this will be the last. I just want to say some things here, deep from my heart. I love you. Love conceals a millions and billions of meaning. But my love for you is sincere from my heart. I take this as a gift from Allah. I never thought you could be the one I love and the one I want to be with. Never. However, we can't predict Allah predictions. I don't know if you're reading this. If you don't, then let this be a mystery. I wonder how much you love me. No, not doubting your love. Just wondering. Sometimes things happened and it happened w/o me knowing and in front of my very own eyes. Jealousy proves love but not too much . Too much of it means not trusting. I wonder if my jealousy sometimes is appropriate. What happened yesterday, I just want you to just say something to make me feel ease. I still think it's my fault. I feel useless when I can't make you happy but to let you face stressful situation. I know you're not that sweet talker. I love the way you are. Sometimes I just want you to just tell me it's not me and you're really sorry. I don't care who you hang out with or what you're up to as long as you're safe and you know who am I in your life. But who am I? Am I just a typical girlfriend? Are those promises we made together true? Will you really love me and never change? I'm afraid. I trust you, yes I do. But at times, I ask this question to myself. Thousands times we said we love each other, but words can't describe how much we love right? I just want you to know that every single seconds I inhale the oxygen, I inhale my love to you. My days are incomplete without you. Your pictures replaced yourself when you're not with me. It never bores me seeing you smiling at me at pictures. Call me crazy, I'm crazy in love with you. I want you to take care of yourself if just one day I'm not there. Tell me what magics you bring to make me fall this hard. Because whenever I hug you, my heart sank. My tears drop because I'm afraid one day I'll lose you and because I really really love you.
Now goodnight blog.

8:21 AM

Friday, January 6, 2012

Maybe I'm immune to keep and be strong since I was a kid.

6:02 AM

Monday, January 2, 2012

you took me and you left me

7:25 AM

i dont't want the past to happen again.
i don't want to hope, trust, imagine.
but why am i doing when i know it's gonna hurt.

7:12 AM

Sunday, January 1, 2012

sometimes it's not all about insecurities.
sometimes it's not about negativity.
sometimes she just want you to tell her that she's more important than anything else.
sometimes she just want you to tell her that only her in your heart.

she want you to make her feel that she's the only girl no matter how many friends you have.
she want you to make her feel special.

she's jealous because she love.
just tell her that your phone vibrates everyday only for her and not other girls.
just tell her that you care for her more than other girls.
just tell her that you only go for other girls if the girl really need you.
just tell her that you and other girls are merely friends.
just tell her that your love are only her.

and all this, you need to be honest, come from your heart.

she might get jealous over your girl bestfriend.
simply, let her meet that girl.
girls are full of emotional.
understand them.

5:21 PM